I haven’t yet immersed into my bones. To blend into cosmos and bleed into its vastness - to ever, ever exist.
Some days fall right between midnight - dawn spears a floral siren and the sun from the balcony drips honey - a moment of decay - through the smoke in the balcony, the fragments surround themselves until it’s a call.
Around it seems everything is happening. The clouds have been forgiven of the burden, the sun stands tall and yet - how i wish to want you.
Fitter Happier - By the sound of the first aid, it’s almost like morning again. Sun weakened, curled into the potions. I realise how you and I are a child of nature. Lonely in all its essence, yet coherent.
How the sun sacrifices its last drop of honey for a swirling piece of grey smoke that had to wait through the day. It awaits, knowing the rains it could bring to punish and confine the very heat for days. How nature knows coherency like we slip into conversations with people we never met. A hidden emblem you would never scratch, a dark spell or chai until it’s post golden.
Dark feels naked. Unlike the other, it opens up into pieces of your smell. How do i survive without you - star by star - a moon - star by star - fathoming into you.
I realise how like languages, we are all a fragment of each other. I drag my chair closer to the window because I have a picture of you doing that. How everyday I am a little less of myself.
You and I - Urdu - لشکر
What each chord brings to the table. You slide off the quilt or you live. You get the first bus or you live. In itself an incredible choice - to wake up again - to sleep for once - meet myself at dusk again - try to immerse into my bones - my bones, just yet.
we stir our voices,
me, akhtari and faiz
- شامِ فراق اب نہ پوچھ -
the panes of the window spectate - the neighbourhood thinks it’s a prayer - then hushed silence. I murder the light - I birth a war - midnight.
you come once in a while, and transport us into a beautiful trance through your unique disposition and narrative, Thank you for existing! 🤎💜
for not so 'khas' day, this is one of the most beautiful narratives ive read!💜